another one
So, here I am again, posting a blog for no one to read but myself. I think I’m beginning to enjoy having a place to vent, boast, yell or scream whatever I want and not have anyone to judge me. It’s becoming more appealing the more I think about it. So, here I go. No one from my group of friends from my first year of college is returning for sure next year. I am super depressed about it. I formed such tight bonds with them and I hate to loose it. I’m going to have basically one person that I know and get along with on a regular basis when I return. I was uber excited earlier in the summer, but now that I’ve talked to my friends and found out this terrible news, I am not really looking forward to my social life next year. I’m thinking about getting a job (almost full-time) and just use that as an excuse for next year. I don’t want this to happen again, so I might just avoid making new friends and only communicate with people via Facebook or MySpace. I hate the idea of going back to college in a different state in the same position as last time. I didn’t know anyone, I had only talked to my roommate twice before meeting (she turned out to be a bad opposite, we never hung out outside of band practice), and I’m going to do it all over again next year. Hopefully, I can get a job fairly early and save up some money and just move up to Joplin. I don’t want the hassle of moving back after the year ends and I can save more money if I just live up there off-campus. I know I would enjoy it more, and I could keep my job during the summer instead of coming back to a small town where the job market is overrun by high schoolers. *sigh* I’m just tired of thinking. And physically tired, I got up this morning at 7 am to go work out with my sister. Taebo for 42 minutes straight, burning about 575 calories. Not bad considering I hadn’t eaten anything, so that number’s probably too low. I’m really hoping that all this working out during the summer will not only give me some more muscle, but help me loose some weight. I really would like to loose about 20 and get down to the double digits, but I doubt that will happen. I hate my body.
On a happier note, I am writing again. Now I’m brave enough to put up some of my own work. So here goes….
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It is over now, forever.
We can never go back.
The newly charted territory
Was not for naught.
The memories we made
Will last for eternity.
It was fun while it lasted,
But the end has come.
We have been torn apart
Thrust into the cruel world.
Separately we will venture
And walk down our life paths.
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I look down from the sky
And I see the beauty of God’s green earth;
The forest of rich, green leaves,
The river flowing cool and clear.
The mountains rising in the east
Are now tinted red from the setting sun.
The forest stretches to the north beyond sight,
The river disappears as it winds to the south.
The sun bows out gracefully, succuming to the white orb.
I sigh, this is beauty.
This is life.
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I wrote those around the same time, about 1 year ago.
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