22122011- late night thoughts

I got out of work tonight. Thank God. I drank myself silly this morning when I got home before I passed out. That place drives me crazy.
And it’s a shame I can’t mention the name of the place because supposedly people got in trouble for stuff like that on Facebook.

I’m also drinking tomorrow night. I’m already off (and I’m not volunteering to go in on a Friday night) and have several people coming over through the night to drink and chill. It’s been forever since I’ve been able to just talk with friends. I miss it. Alcohol helps.

Things are going well with Andrew right now. I think we’ve hit a plateau. The fighting isn’t worth it, so we tend to skip it now. I would love to go into detail here about today, but I think that would be unwise. No telling who reads this thing now. I’ve got search engines every day that link here. It’s almost unnerving.

 

…I think I need a new blog. New domain, new host, new everything.

15122011- Musings

So, I am thinking about changing some things in my life. Some major things.

Like my major and my university. Joplin is going to be about 1000 bucks cheaper than Fayetteville. 1000. That’s massive. I might even make more money up there. I need to look into that. Desperately.

Also, I am going to take my mom on a vacation next year. Or maybe this summer. I’ve already planned it out for the most part. Initially, I thought about going to Australia for a couple weeks, but that doesn’t look to be possible financially. So, I am planning on taking a train or a car (whichever she’d rather) to Chicago and D.C. and New York this summer. I’m so excited. I’ve never been on a vacation with just my mom. I might take Dad too. Not too sure about that. Depends on finances.
My mom needs a vacation away from family and work and the shit going on right now. And I owe it to her. At least that.

…Joplin is going to be so much fun. I’ve already talked to Ryan a bit about hitting the gay bar when I’m up there. I need a buddy to go apartment hunting too.

I’m not sure what to do about Andrew now. He and I have had some massive downs this week. But, if he asked, I’d stay in the country.

//I’m off to take a final.

13122011-the dream

I spent all day yesterday awake. It was over 24 hours before I fell asleep.

 

And I dreamed a wonderful dream.

 

//I was in Australia again. I remember the “plane” I rode to get there. It wasn’t really a plane, but a portal of sorts. It was amazing to ride, and it made wonderful sense while I was dreaming. I can even remember thinking “I’ve done this before. I can turn around and ride backwards if I wanted…” and I did. I met up with Stevie when I landed, though I don’t remember the actual landing. She was paying someone 14 dollars for something. We decided to get dinner, but I had to see the ocean again before we could leave Surfers. It wasn’t just the beach I saw though, it was everything I remember about the beaches all in one sight. Collongatta and Byron Bay and Surfers and Southport. It was beautiful. And I remember not having purchased a visa, which explains why I don’t remember getting off the plane. (You have to have a visa to leave the airport.) I decided to get a visitors visa since my mom was going to join me soon. I’m not sure what else happened, but I remember waking up and wanting to cry when I realized where I really was…

30112011

Oh. My. God.
This night is dragging. I could have sworn it was much much later. So much has happened at work, and its only 1am.

When I saw the time, I had a flashback to when I tripped and time drug. (No pun intended). I even had a mini freak out. Now, I’m just trying to get my mind off time and lose myself in TV for a couple hours.

This day has been insane.